Crossing the Sauvignon Blanc

Chapter 127: Heart-to-heart talk with the Queen Mother

Yushan

Yan Mo was chasing rabbits in the peach forest. In the past two years, in addition to spending time in the library, Yan Mo also took the time to plant grass on the sandy soil under the peach forest, and sparsely planted some wild flowers of various colors. Because the spiritual energy here is rich, Yan Mo used water from the Yaochi Lake to water it. Both the grass and the flowers are growing very pleasingly, and at a glance, it is no longer a single pink. Several little white rabbits are jumping and eating grass, and a little kitten is lying on the branch and taking a nap, its eyes rolling around, looking here and there, as if it feels there is no place to use it, so it goes to play by itself.

Every once in a while, Yan Mo would place a storybook where the Queen Mother usually sat. Although he didn't know if she would read it, she had been alone for years without anyone to accompany her. Xianjun and Lieyang were extremely respectful to the Queen Mother and usually didn't talk to her at all. No wonder she looked so listless. If she were an ordinary person, she would have gone crazy talking to herself long ago.

The Queen Mother looked at Yan Mo chasing the rabbit and playing from afar, and unconsciously smiled a little. In the past two years, this girl has been noisy, but she did not stop her. Yushan has not been so lively for a long time.

Suddenly, a cat appeared in front of the Queen Mother, making various movements as if to make her happy. Seeing that it was really trying hard, the Queen Mother squatted down and touched its head. She seemed to have not smiled for a long time, and her face was a little stiff as she forced a smile. The cat rubbed the Queen Mother's palm with its fluffy head.

"Go ahead and have fun!" The Queen Mother's voice was very gentle.

朏朏 tilted her head, as if confused, but she still walked away looking back every few steps, which was quite smart.

Yan Mo thought that 朏朏 was really cute, so he fed it an elixir that could awaken its intelligence when he released it, so this 朏朏 has a certain level of intelligence.

Yan Mo saw the Queen Mother coming from afar, put down the rabbit in his arms, and waved happily to her. His smile was like the sunshine in spring, warm and contagious.

Yan Mo trotted to the Queen Mother's side. His attitude was not respectful, but rather warm, as if he was meeting an acquaintance or friend. Yan Mo put his arm around the Queen Mother's arm and took her for a walk on the small path that was specially left for her.

"Queen Mother, you're so willing to come out. Have you read the storybook? It's lovely to read."

"From what you said, you are waiting for me on purpose?" The Queen Mother was not angry. She didn't know what she was angry about, but this girl did arouse her interest.

"Hehe, you guessed right. I came here for a purpose. I want to learn puppetry. In this world, you are the only one who is proficient in puppetry."

"You're neither my disciple nor my relative, so I don't need to teach you. Trying to please me with a few storybooks isn't enough." The Queen Mother suddenly wanted to tease her, to see what she could come up with. But puppetry couldn't be taught to anyone casually.

"Then we can be friends! Although I can't stay with you for long, there are still a lot of things waiting for me to deal with outside, and I am worried about Xiaoyao facing all the difficulties in the future alone, but I promise you that I will come back to accompany you often, but I don't want to be the Queen Mother, don't even think about it!"

"Oh, you dare to say anything."

"Life is so boring if you are always hesitant to speak! You don't know that I even dare to scold Shaohao. Haha, it's his fault for being so stupid. Ah Heng is very happy now and has a daughter named Wuyou."

"You're quite capable. You even managed to convince Ah Heng to marry Shao Hao. Ah Heng probably only has Chi Chen in her heart!"

"People always change. We can't always live in the past. In fact, Shaohao and Ah Heng are a better match. Although that bastard Chi Chen loves Ah Heng very much, he also hurt Ah Heng deeply. He has returned to the world. Does he want Ah Heng to be immersed in the pain of losing him for the rest of her life? Chi Chen doesn't want to see her like this. He wants Ah Heng to be happy."

The Queen Mother suddenly fell silent. She was probably the only one living in the past.

"Amei?"

The Queen Mother looked up at Yan Mo in astonishment. How long had it been since anyone called her Ah Mei?

"You're so brave! I could be your grandmother!"

"No way, the Queen Mother is so beautiful. When we go out, I will just say you are my sister. Besides, I am just like that. I don't like to use honorifics for people I like. It's too distant. When I was still a mortal and had no cultivation, I dared to provoke Military Advisor Chen Rong. There is nothing in this world that I dare not do."

"You look a bit like Chichen!"

"No, I'm not as bad as him!"

The Queen Mother laughed, this girl is quite interesting.

"What's the point of learning puppetry?"

Yan Mo was delighted when he heard these words. There was hope!

"Xiao Yao will face several life-threatening situations. I don't want to ask the Tushan family's fox for help, so I have to do it myself. It's worth having an extra skill. Don't worry, I will never use it to do anything harmful. If you don't believe me, you can send someone to inquire about me. I am a kind person, but I have never revealed my true identity. Haha, it's a bit embarrassing."

"I can teach you puppetry, but like you said, it can't be used to harm innocent people. As for how much you can learn, it depends on your luck!"

"Thank you, Amei, you are so kind!" Yan Mo happily tightened his grip on her arm and continued to walk with Yu Mu.

"No respect for elders!" Although the Queen Mother said this, she was not unhappy about Yan Mo's rudeness. Instead, she was kind of doting on the younger generation. In fact, she liked Yan Mo very much. Seeing her was like seeing her past self.

"Amei, do you really plan to live like this for the rest of your life? Although it's beautiful here, it's really too quiet. If Xiangliu is not here to accompany me, I won't be able to endure it for long..." Yan Mo looked at the Queen Mother, and actually she felt a little sorry for her.

"Some things can no longer be changed." The Queen Mother's voice was filled with fatigue and hopelessness about the future. She had no desires, no demands, no sadness, and no joy.

"Do you regret choosing this path?"

"It's meaningless to say this now."

"But you're unhappy. People can be unhappy for a while, but being unhappy for a lifetime is incredibly painful. Even though you didn't say anything, didn't do anything, and didn't even show it, you're like a pool of stagnant water, lifeless. You're the only one who's kept the promises you made when you were young. Don't take other people's mistakes upon yourself. Maybe you know your life is coming to an end, and that life and death don't matter to you, but why don't we make ourselves happier in our final moments? Your state isn't one of neither sadness nor joy, but rather one of a dead heart. We don't need to please others, so why not please ourselves?"

"You are quite clear-headed." The Queen Mother smiled. Today, she smiled more than she had in the past thousand years. But now that things have come to this, my friend is gone. What else is there in the world worth lingering on? I only keep a promise, a responsibility, and a little reluctance to let go.

"I just don't want to regret anything, so I do everything according to my heart, without feeling unhappy. Everyone is trapped in their own choices, and whether they are correct takes time to verify. If they are right, then I will be happy. But if they are wrong, then when to cut losses or choose to remain trapped forever is also my choice."

Yan Mo looked at the three people drinking in the distance, his eyes suddenly became gentle, and he continued.

"Just like I chose to love him, I will give my all and leave no regrets. We love each other, so it's the right choice. I can give everything for him. If he never loved me, then I wish him to find his own happiness. I can love him, but I have never lost myself. I can still be free and easy in the world and not put any pressure on him."

"King Shennong and Lady Luozu feel they owe you something. They've never come to see you in their entire lives. None of the three of them have spoken about it, and that means they're all suffering. Many things feel better when spoken out. Why torture yourself? They don't want you to spend the rest of your life like this."

The Queen Mother fell silent again. Although a thousand years had passed, the memories were like seeds that had taken root in her mind and heart. But when she thought about it carefully, it didn't seem like a big deal. It was just because she was angry when she was young and went to Jade Mountain. From then on, she never knew what happiness was.

"Amei, please teach me how to dance! I want to dance for him!"

"Why do you want to learn everything?" The Queen Mother laughed dumbly.

"In life, you can learn as long as you live. There will always be a time when what you learn will be useful. Besides, this is what I want to do. I want to do anything that makes me happy, no matter how difficult it is..."

"My old bones can't stand your torture!"

"Amei, sister, please teach me, please..." Yan Mo shook the Queen Mother's arm and pouted coquettishly.

"Okay, okay, I'll teach you everything. Don't cry out in pain when the time comes!"

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"Spread your legs a little, you're too stiff..."

"Oh, sister, you're going to kill me!"

"Who said they weren't afraid of pain..."

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