Farmhouse Green Plum

Chapter 578: Sense of Worthy

It is true that reciprocity is necessary for the relationship between people to last, but this reciprocity does not necessarily mean equal value. If a boy has no property, how can he be given a gift?

So under normal circumstances, it is enough for children to show their appreciation to their elders, and the gift is not important.

Yang was very clear about this principle when it came to her own son. She knew that he was still a child and had just started his career. Asking him to repay the family at this time would be a burden to him and put him under tremendous pressure.

When it comes to her, they take every opportunity to teach her to be grateful and to hint to her, explicitly or implicitly, that she should give back to her family.

He treated her like a fool, thinking that if he used the excuse of honoring his master, she wouldn't be able to understand his true intention.

She wasn't really teaching her the ways of the world; she was clearly trying to tame her in various ways.

Raising a child is like planting a tree. You have to water it carefully so that the seedling can grow into a big tree. Even if you have no feelings for the child and just hope that the child will give back to you after growing up, you still have to raise the tree first before you can wait to eat the fruit.

But what did Second Aunt and the others do? They were already anxiously asking for a reward before they had even raised her tree to maturity.

While they kept repeating that they treated her like their own daughter and emphasized their kindness, they were also afraid that she would take it seriously and take their efforts for granted. So from time to time, they shirked the responsibility of "nurturing" her by saying that "after all, she is just a niece."

Such upbringing put a huge pressure on the young girl. Although she realized it later, it still affected her in the first few years. When faced with other people's kindness, she would subconsciously feel that she was unworthy and felt very nervous. She always had to return the kindness immediately to feel at ease.

When she first arrived at the Shen residence, she subconsciously avoided going to places where she might get into trouble, because she thought she would not be able to afford the compensation if something happened.

This kind of personality sometimes helps her avoid some troubles, such as when Xiaofu accused her of stealing ginseng, but she had never stepped into the big kitchen, so she had no chance to steal, and she immediately dispelled Xiaofu's slander.

But in the long run, she will probably become like Chuntao, who is smart and knows opportunities, but because she is afraid of taking responsibility, she hesitates and misses many good opportunities.

Chuntao has been responsible for handing over the medicinal food of Shun'an County Master to her master. She also wants to learn pharmacology, but she is always worried that she will be implicated if something goes wrong and does not want to take the responsibility. Otherwise, the Shen family will not need to find another temporary worker at all, and she will not have the opportunity to become her master's apprentice.

She gradually realized this and decided to change. Her abilities and confidence grew stronger. With the guidance and support of her master, she is now less timid, dares to try, dares to challenge, and is not afraid of failure.

Thinking of his master, Song Ying felt a warm feeling in his heart, and the annoyance caused by Yang's words dissipated a lot.

Every time she came back, she was in a bad mood. This year, her master would not be spending the New Year in Shen Mansion, but would be staying up all night in Huichun Hall with his uncles and brothers, and she wanted to join them.

But her master persuaded her to come back, saying that there were only a few years left and she couldn't give people a chance to talk about her.

Now that the situation is like this, it’s a good time to run away!

She stood up and said, "But Second Aunt, you reminded me that this year is different from previous years. This is the first time that Master is spending the New Year away from home. She doesn't have many relatives here, so it won't be good to be alone. I have to go and keep her company!"

As she said that, she picked up the hand warmer and walked out.

Song Tian thought she was still angry, so he quickly dropped the Spring Festival couplets and came over to stop her, "It's getting late now, and it won't be safe after dark."

"Didn't your mother tell me that I should be grateful? Master is so good to me, I should respect her!" Song Ying blocked Song Tian's rebuttal with just one sentence.

But she remembered that it was Yang who provoked her, not Song Tian, so she softened her tone and said, "Today is New Year's Eve, and every household is lighting lanterns to celebrate the New Year. It's much brighter than usual. If I walk faster, I should be able to get there before dark."

"That won't work either. It's so cold walking back here."

Song Tian tried to persuade him again and again, but seeing that Song Ying was determined, he had no choice but to say, "Then I'll drive you in a carriage."

Yang, who had already entered the house, immediately came out upon hearing this and said, "I just said it's getting late. Going back and forth will take even longer. You'll have to travel in the dark when you come back."

Then he looked at Song Ying and said, "Yingwa, I know you are filial to your master, but it is really inconvenient now. It will be the same if we go to the city early tomorrow morning."

"That won't do. The meaning of staying up all night is different. After tonight, relatives will visit each other to celebrate the New Year, but tonight is for family to stay up all night. Since Master treats me like her own daughter, it's natural for her to stay up all night with him."

Yang was so upset that she almost couldn't breathe. She tried to persuade Song Tian tactfully, but Song Tian wanted to climb up the ladder by relying on Song Ying's relationship and Yuan Qing's influence. How could he let Song Ying walk back alone in such a cold day?

She couldn't persuade either of them and was very angry. She left a sentence "It's up to you. I can't control you now" and went into the house.

But when the wheels of the cart began to turn, she still worriedly warned Song Tian: "It's too late, so don't rush back. We can take the ox cart into the city tomorrow morning."

On New Year's Eve, every household puts up Spring Festival couplets at home and prepares to stay up all night. The fields on both sides of the road are empty, and the carriage becomes deserted after leaving the village.

Song Tian couldn't help but said, "Sister, I know my mother's words are sometimes unpleasant to the ear, but this time she was right. She really meant it for your own good."

Song Ying smiled. If there was nothing wrong to find on the surface, Second Aunt would not have come forward in person. She had always said that she was just an aunt, not a biological mother, and it was not easy for her to take care of such matters, so she let Grandma Li come forward.

Facing Song Tian, Song Ying spoke very bluntly: "Whether she is sincere or not, I can tell for myself. Since we are just relatives, then we should fulfill our duties as relatives and not act like elders. How to get along with my master is something I know well and I don't need anyone to teach me."

Song Tian didn't expect her to say such cruel words. He was stunned for a long time before he said awkwardly, "We've been eating from the same pot for more than ten years. No matter what, we can't become strangers. It's inevitable that family members will have some conflicts."

Song Ying laughed again. They were eating from the same pot. When they threatened her and forced her to submit, no one remembered that they were a family.

She closed her eyes and rubbed her temples. "I'm tired of talking about these things and don't want to repeat them. Whether I treat you as relatives or family depends solely on how I judge you.

Don't think you can change my mind with just a few words. I have understood one thing since I was nine years old: you can't just listen to what others say, you have to see how they do it.

Lying is too easy. It costs nothing to tell a lie, but actual actions do cost money, and the possibility of faking it is even lower."