If love can be booked

Chapter 177 Zhao Qinglin's future plan does not include her

I once thought that no matter how unreasonable she was, he would never let go. It turns out that love can't stand the test. I once thought that she was the happiest woman in the world because she met him. It turns out that love is not a matter of one person. Who still remembers the love words they said and the places they walked side by side?

"I miss you..." It turns out that I miss you, and feel a little sad...

"Think about it slowly..." He knows the feeling of missing someone.

"Uh..." Her thoughts drifted away, and she couldn't help but fall into deep thought: Is it really just that I think too much, and he is too slow? Why is it always difficult for the two of us to converge on the same point? Think slowly? Do you know that when I think of you, my whole world is in chaos, I will feel inexplicably bad, and I will cry sadly.

"When someone says they miss you, shouldn't you say I miss you too?" This question is like a stone thrown into a calm heart, stirring up ripples. Is she too sensitive and delicate, over-interpreting every detail; or is he too dull and insensitive to keenly capture the subtle fluctuations of the other person's emotions?

"You want to control this too?" She always wants others to follow her ideas...

"I dare not." Yes, what right did she have to discipline him? He was not hers. A trace of bitterness quietly crept into her heart.

"I want to ask you something..." He spoke hesitantly, with a hint of hesitation in his tone, as if he had an important secret hidden in his heart. He wanted to tell her about his future plans, but he didn't want to lie to her. In this world, she was the person he least wanted to lie to...

"Tell me..." He rarely took the initiative to ask about her, but today seemed a little unusual.

"Have you thought about our future?" he asked cautiously. About whether we can be together...

"I have thought about it." How could I not have thought about it? I thought about marrying him and waiting for him to come home for dinner. I also thought about having a baby with him and naming it together.

"What are you thinking about?" Have you ever thought about it?

"What do you want to know?" There was a hint of mystery in his words, which made her feel puzzled. There was something else behind his words...

"Actually, I always knew that I would eventually return to my hometown. It's just a matter of time. Coming to T City was also part of my life plan." His voice was calm and firm, as if he had made the decision long ago.

"Are you going back to your hometown?" She was shocked and a trace of disappointment flashed in her eyes.

"Well, coming to T City to work is just one of the five-year plans." Time flies, and so many years have passed since graduation. The days of working hard outside are never as stable as at home.

"No...I haven't heard you mention that." I haven't heard that he's going home...

"So I want to ask you, do you have to stay in T City?" If they are heading in different directions in the future, why not let go now? What if there is a what if?

"If you insist on staying in T City, there's no need to drag it out like this. After all, we're not young anymore, and I don't want to hold you back." He sighed softly, with a hint of guilt in his eyes. Zhenzhen, I'm sorry, I'm afraid of holding you back, I dare not let you down. I can see that you're looking for love in me, and I'm afraid I can't give you the happiness you want.

"I don't have to stay in T City." I just came to this city by chance, hoping to find a warm person in this strange city and build a warm family...

"If I choose to go with you, do you know what that means?" If she goes with him regardless of everything, can he give her the happiness she wants?

"Giving up everything I know and living alone in a strange city, I only have you." He can have his own circle of life, return to his familiar hometown, surrounded by his familiar family and friends. But she chose to go with him, and he was the only one left alone.

"If you bully me, what should I do?" Every sentence is filled with deep helplessness and uneasiness, which makes people fall into deep thought. If his world is only friends, if his world is only work, what should she do? Whose life is without some friction?

"Stupid, how could I bully you?" Zhao Qinglin said lovingly, his eyes full of tenderness.

Qiu Ruozhen pouted: "Who knows?" She blinked her big, lively eyes and smiled slyly. His definition of bullying is different from hers, right?

Zhao Qinglin smiled helplessly: "No."

Qiu Ruozhen was silent for a moment and then asked, "Do you really have to leave?"

"Yes, I will definitely go." His voice was low but powerful, as if he had made up his mind. Once a decision is made, it will not be easily changed.

"Okay, I understand." Qiu Ruozhen nodded thoughtfully, with a hint of disappointment in her eyes. If he insisted on leaving, what reason did she have to stay?

I just came back from Wuzhen. The marriage sign said that the man is talented and the woman is beautiful. They have matching personalities and can form a happy family. Now he is asking if it is necessary to continue the relationship. After knowing each other for several months, he asked me such a question.

One glass of red wine won't make you drunk...

He no longer cries foolishly. He said that he woke up many times on the night he went back home, and finally understood what heartache was. How could he not think about their future? But has he ever thought about taking her away one day? Does she exist in his world?

One of my best friends said that he just didn’t like her that much, at least not as much as she imagined. Another best friend said that he was a very responsible person, at least he knew how to communicate in advance, out of respect.

It was supposed to be a night for two people, but tonight was very quiet. She did not take the initiative to contact him, and her phone did not receive any message alerts. Qinglin, do you know? Even if I know you don't love me, I still love you deeply, deeply. If I have to give myself a reason to love you, I think it's because you are you. In your corner, I can't see anyone else.

I can’t work properly because I miss him, and I cry when I miss him…

Posted a microblog, quoting a poem by Xu Zhimo:

At least once in life

Forget yourself for someone

No results

No need for companionship

Don't ask for what you once had

I don't even ask you to love me

I just want to be in my most beautiful years

Meet you

Perhaps he saw her Weibo, so he asked: Have you ever thought that we would end up together? He was the one who said he was leaving, and he was also the one who said he was going to leave, so why did he ask this?

She could follow him regardless of everything, but could he give her the sense of security she wanted? After meeting him, tears became a common occurrence, just because one of his words could easily touch her heart.

Thinking about everything about him, thinking about their future journey, I miss his laughter, and the illusion of having him by my side...

Why do those idol dramas where the girl chases the boy always have a happy ending quickly? Who once said that there is a so-called pursuit law in the world of love, that when a man chases a girl, it is like a mountain between them, while when a woman chases a boy, it is like a thin veil between them? But she thinks the fact is just the opposite.

Ding ding ding…her good friend Suizi.

"Hey…"

"He said he wanted to go home..." Tears blurred her eyes. She had clearly told herself to be strong. He didn't say she had to leave now. They still had time to continue, right?

"Go home? Now?" She had never heard her say that before, and asked in surprise.

"Not now, but some time in the future." If she hadn't heard by chance that he was leaving, if she hadn't sensed his determination, she could have continued to lie to herself that she liked him a little bit, and then she could have expressed her love for him unscrupulously and continued to like everything about him.

"Why do you want to go home suddenly?" she asked in confusion. Wasn't he doing well in T City? He was said to be the company's vice president and engineer, which should be considered a good job.

"It wasn't sudden. He said it was part of his plan." Maybe he wanted to say it a long time ago but just didn't find the right entry point.

"What should I do?" His words were too irresponsible. If you are going to go back sooner or later, why bother to mess with other girls?

"I don't know what to do either." Qiu Ruozhen shook her head like a rag doll.

"Kiss, hug..." Love is really hard to come by.

"So what's your situation now?" A silent breakup or... ?

"I don't know either." It seemed that she was always out of the situation and knew nothing about many things. She even learned that he had a younger brother from the occasional mention of him.

"I just never thought about this question." She once naively believed that liking someone was a lifelong commitment, but reality ruthlessly told her that everything could change.

"What about him?" What did he think?

"It's time to go to bed..." He always had a fixed schedule for her, but for his friends, he could stay up late without caring about her waiting.

"Then you should think about it carefully and don't force it." She knew about their relationship from the beginning. In such a relationship, she undoubtedly gave everything...

"I've made up my mind. I can date him at any cost." In the past twenty-seven years, she had rarely liked anyone. He was the only one she liked, and she didn't want to let go.

"When he leaves one day, I will start over again." I am not afraid of getting hurt, I am only afraid of not even having the chance to love you. Since we have met, I think God has his own plan.

"What if you fall in love with him?" If you love deeply, how can you let go?

"I've fallen in love with him." I'm used to someone asking me to wait for him every day...

"Can you afford to lose? You're already 27?" Love is inherently unequal. Just because you fall in love with someone doesn't mean that the other person has also fallen deeply in love with you.

"I..." I'm betting my life's happiness, how can you bear to let me lose?

"Don't be silly, girl." If you were a little less persistent, the pain would be a little less. If you were a little less insistent, your tears would not be so unbridled.

"One day you will find that giving up is not that difficult." Sometimes what we need is the free and easy smile when looking back, and to take a lightly look at the past persistence and perseverance.

"Maybe his statement of wanting to go home is just a polite way of saying no to you, and he's afraid of hurting you." He may be looking for a perfect reason for your incompatibility and making a grand exit.

"Impossible..." Impossible, he wouldn't do that. It wasn't the first day she knew him, and she still believed him. Even though he had indirectly said they wanted to break up, she still believed him.

"You are the one who is confused. I never felt that he likes you." If he likes you, he will not make you wait again and again; if he likes you, he will care about your tears; if he likes you, he will not give up the opportunity to meet you just because of the drizzle.

"Think about it, you've only known each other for a short time, and he said he wanted to go home. He just told you his decision, not discussing it with you." He just politely told you what he was thinking, not asking for your opinion. Maybe you can discuss it.

"As a subjective plan, it can be changed. Why can't he stay for you instead of asking you to go home with him?" What ties are there that force him to go home? Home and you, he resolutely chose the place where his mother is.

"That's very telling." He doesn't love you, it's obvious...

"Oh... I know." He doesn't love her...

He didn't love her, she knew it, but she would sometimes lie to herself and say that his gentleness was also a way for him to like her, or at least a way for her to like him.

Zhao Qinglin, what do you want me to do? I like you so much...

A song by Jeff Chang, A night without tears is heaven...