If love can be booked

Chapter 233 Chinese New Year

I am most afraid of staying in a bustling place, most afraid of seeing the cheering crowd, most afraid of hearing the sound of carnival, most afraid of seeing his lonely eyes.

Once upon a time, she also imagined how to meet the man of her life in her most beautiful season. But, in the end, she still missed it, missed the most beautiful years, and missed him.

There was no need to ask whether they were in love, because love had already been deeply integrated into her blood. Her love for her had become a habit that could not be broken, as natural and indispensable as breathing.

It’s not that I haven’t thought about living alone. I have thought about it and tried to do it.

It wasn't his departure that meant her life couldn't go on, but without his company, the air around her seemed to become unusually thin, making it hard to breathe.

It's not that she can't help thinking about him. It's just that when she thinks about him, she knows that she is alive.

The Chinese New Year is coming! The air is filled with the strong flavor of the New Year, and the streets and alleys are bustling with activity. Looking around, there are crowds of people everywhere, everyone is busy buying all kinds of New Year goods, their faces are filled with happiness and anticipation, and they are ready to happily welcome the new year.

"Who said that a new year brings new things?" she couldn't help but mutter to herself. Indeed, at this time of year, people always have a beautiful vision for the future, looking forward to changes and gains in the new year.

For several years, because of working outside, I rarely go home during the rare annual leave, and I just call to report that I am safe.

Thinking back to when she was in school, she had Chu Haoyang by her side. Although they didn't have many opportunities to meet, she would silently count the few times she missed him every day, feeling sweet in her heart. However, later on, he became busier and busier, and she was too lazy to celebrate the New Year. Celebrating the New Year only meant that she was one year older.

Until last year, things changed. She met Lu Jinchuan, and they spent New Year's Eve together.

That time was really wonderful. I remember that Lu Jinchuan said to her: "I will always be with you every New Year in the future. I don't want you to be alone again." These words were like a ray of warm sunshine in winter, warming her heart. Looking back now, those days are still as beautiful as poems and paintings, and have become one of the most cherished memories in her heart.

At that time, my heart was filled with an unprecedented sense of happiness, as if the whole world became brighter and warmer.

There is no need to worry about how to spend the long time alone, no need to be afraid that no one will listen to your voice when you are depressed and full of sorrow, no need to worry about not being able to find the right person to share the joy in your heart, even the moment of looking up at the lonely night alone seems to have gone away, replaced by the warmth of each other's company.

The night is no longer peaceful, but unusually noisy. Perhaps it is because of the strong flavor of the New Year? The streets and alleys are filled with a festive atmosphere, and everywhere is filled with joy and peace.

Couples walked hand in hand on the street, whispering to each other from time to time, looking forward to a better future; families happily went out to buy New Year's goods, parents holding their children's hands, the scene was full of family warmth. Even the gray-haired old men and women were not to be outdone, and joined in the lively scene. Although the years had left deep and shallow marks on their weathered faces, their smiles were as innocent and bright as children's.

The streets are still as prosperous as before, with bright lights and busy traffic.

Whenever the bustling world ends and the night is quiet, a deep loneliness and solitude will quietly come over you.

Recently, I often feel like a lonely old man who has experienced many vicissitudes of life. My heart, which was originally full of vitality, has gradually lost its youthful luster.

I don't know since when, my heart is no longer so calm, as if a little insignificant thing can easily touch that sensitive nerve, tears flood. No matter what happens, I can think of him, recalling every bit they have experienced together, the food they have tasted together, the games they have played, and every road they have walked hand in hand.

Sometimes, when walking on the busy streets, I would mistake a stranger's back for him. Are all people who have lost love like me, lost in the fog of love? Or are my emotions too abundant to control myself?

It was eight o'clock in the evening, which was very late in winter, at least it should be dark, but the lights turned the night into day, leaving no place for my lonely thoughts to hide. Perhaps only in this quiet night can I count my endless thoughts for him alone.

Colorful neon lights are flashing constantly, the streets and alleys are crowded with people, and the noise is endless.

She walked aimlessly, not knowing where she was, and not caring where she was going. Because no matter where she was, there was no him, no voice, no breath. She just followed her footsteps, followed her thoughts, and quietly accompanied the night.

At first, she was the one who ruthlessly pushed him away. Perhaps from that moment on, they were destined to take different paths. Perhaps, she shouldn't be a bad person, even in love. He didn't understand this pain, and she didn't want to understand it, but it deeply tortured her nerves.

As night falls, stars twinkle in the sky.

Shen Wanning stood alone on the empty overpass, looking up at the deep night sky, shouting at the top of her lungs: "Jinchuan, Lu Jinchuan!" It had been too long, and the heavy feeling of depression was like a mountain pressing on her heart, making it almost impossible for her to breathe.

"Lu Jinchuan, come back." Thinking of him, saying his name, tears still fall. I thought that as time goes by, he will fade out of my life. I was wrong, so wrong. Time can change the appearance and the unforgettable memories, but it can't change the trajectory of her love for him.

"I love you, I love you, I... love... you." Shen Wanning had already burst into tears. Her love for him was like a surging tide that could not be contained, but he knew nothing about it. She had chosen to remain silent before, not because she did not love him, but because she believed that he could understand her heart. However, now it seems that he may have noticed something, but he was never sure of this deep love.

"Please don't leave me, okay?" Ever since the moment he left her, she had been trying to make her life better, so that when he came back, he would see that she was still as beautiful as before, and had not changed at all because of his departure.

"I'm scared, I'm so scared to be alone, I'm so scared." It's been so long, I'm scared that he will never come back, I'm scared that you will be attached to that world and no longer care about her.

"Lu Jinchuan, you are a big bastard." Shen Wanning cried, shouted, and cursed. She hated his sudden disappearance, and she couldn't stand his cold and ruthless indifference.

"Are you scolding me?" As soon as I walked out of the department store, I heard someone calling my name. I looked in the direction of the voice and saw a figure standing not far away, all alone, as if she was out of tune with this bustling world. Does she know what she is doing?

"I..." Shen Wan Ning stood up slowly after hearing the voice. When her eyes met the figure that was so familiar, her eyes became red again. At this moment, she really didn't want to see him at all, because every time they met, the emotions that had been buried deep in her heart would surge up again, and all her efforts would end up in vain.

"After all, there is only one 'Lu Jinchuan' in your mouth." Lu Jinchuan said lightly, his voice was particularly clear in the cold night sky. No wonder he sneezed a lot recently, it turned out that someone was thinking about him.

"Boss? You... why are you here?" Shen Wanning was a little speechless. Her heart seemed to be tightly grasped by an invisible big hand. Especially when her deep longing for him was hit by him before she could hide it, he would definitely laugh at her again.

Lu Jinchuan did not answer her question immediately, but raised the bag in his hand slightly to indicate. With the dim light outside the mall, Shen Wanning vaguely saw that it was filled with various New Year goods. It turned out that he was also out to buy New Year goods.

"What about you?" Lu Jinchuan asked him. She had nothing in her hands. Wasn't she going home for the New Year?

Facing Lu Jinchuan's question, Shen Wanning seemed a little flustered and stammered, "I...I..." The words came to her lips but she didn't know how to start. She couldn't tell the truth because Lu Jinchuan was not around, so there was no one to accompany her to celebrate the New Year.

After a short silence, Shen Wanning quickly made up a story: "I'm also shopping. It's the New Year, so of course I have to buy things." However, only she knew that she had been feeling uneasy recently and didn't know what she wanted to do. She originally planned to go home for the New Year to reunite with her family, but this year everyone in the family went to her grandmother's house. After thinking about it, she felt that it might not be appropriate to go there rashly, so she gave up the idea.

"Oh." Lu Jinchuan nodded meaningfully. Buying New Year's goods? Her?

Shen Wanning seemed eager to escape and was about to leave when Lu Jinchuan called her.

"Hey, the supermarket is over there." Lu Jinchuan kindly reminded. They were clearly walking in the opposite direction, so there was no road over there.

Looking at Shen Wanning's slightly embarrassed and awkward appearance, Lu Jinchuan's mouth corners slightly raised, revealing an imperceptible smile, as smug as a kitten who had just stolen some fish.

At this time, Shen Wanning glared at Lu Jinchuan angrily, then quickly turned her head away, completely ignoring the smiling face that made her feel embarrassed and annoyed.

Lu Jinchuan looked at Shen Wanning's receding back and whispered softly, "What a stubborn and interesting little girl."

"Hey, why are you following me?" Looking at the figure that was always following her, Shen Wanning finally couldn't hold back her annoyance and asked unhappily. It's not like she couldn't find the way? Wasn't he laughing at her just now?

Hearing Shen Wanning's question, Lu Jinchuan smiled slightly and responded softly: "I'm afraid you can't find your way home."

"What?" Shen Wanning turned around abruptly and stared at Lu Jinchuan with suspicion. She was confused for a moment. The way home?

As if he had seen through Shen Wanning's inner thoughts, Lu Jinchuan continued as if nothing had happened: "My parents are on vacation in Europe, please spend the New Year with me." When he said this, he deliberately put on a nonchalant look on his face, but in fact he was very nervous. He had originally planned to invite Shen Wanning to spend the New Year with him, but he didn't expect everything to go so smoothly and naturally, so that even he felt a little surprised. At this moment, he was full of trepidation, would she refuse?

"What?" Shen Wanning obviously hadn't recovered from her shock yet, her beautiful eyes were wide open, and her cherry mouth was opened into a big O shape out of surprise. This sudden invitation really caught her off guard, and she had no idea how to respond.

Seeing that Shen Wanning had not given a reply, Lu Jinchuan took a deep breath and said, "I also want to regain my past memories. This is an opportunity. What do you think?" As soon as he finished speaking, he walked forward without hesitation. However, at the moment he turned around and left, he couldn't help but secretly glance back at Shen Wanning who was still standing there, thinking to himself: She should be able to catch up...

"Really? I do." Shen Wanning walked up to him quickly with a look of surprise on her face and grabbed his arm tightly. She had completely forgotten that he never liked being touched by others. Maybe it was just because this subconscious action had become a habit for her.

Lu Jinchuan's eyes fell directly on her hand that was holding his arm, and he couldn't help but feel a little puzzled. Didn't he hate others touching him? Why didn't her touch disgust him, but made him deeply attached?