What should I do if I lose my memory after transmigrating into a book?

Chapter 122 Perfect Ending

Shen Xi was stunned. Her heart pounded uncontrollably, making her ears ring.

Her voice was very soft.

"Jiang Ci, do you want to rest for a bit?"

Jiang Ci's pupils were pitch black, his eyes filled with suppressed emotion, like a deep, dark river swirling with raging storms and towering waves. His throat felt dry and bitter.

“Shen Xi…”

As if sensing something, Shen Xi slightly moved her hand resting on her knee and slowly responded.

"Um?"

Why... can't you see me clearly anymore?

As Jiang Ci uttered those words, a sudden, intense pain in his heart swept through his entire body, causing his eyes to redden abruptly.

Shen Xi looked into his eyes, which were filled with pain, fear, confusion, panic, and helplessness.

Jiang Ci's image in her heart has always been omnipotent. He is like a warrior in armor, and also like a guiding North Star. He taught the newcomer Shen Xi confidence and elegance. He told Shen Xi that she was worthy. He gave Shen Xi the dignity and respect she deserved, so much so that later many people would take the initiative to greet Shen Xi when they saw her.

Shen Xi held back her tears, not answering Jiang Ci's question. She turned to look at the child in front of her, stroked his hair, and spoke softly.

"Xiaoman".

The little boy, having just recovered from the sour taste on his taste buds, blinked his big eyes and, unusually inelegantly, bared his teeth, but still immediately answered his mother's question.

"Mom, what's wrong?"

Shen Xi's expression remained calm. "It's nothing. I just hope that Xiaoman will be healthy and have a fulfilling life in the future."

A perfect and complete life is the greatest blessing I can give you right now.

Xiao Jiangdu peered into his mother's eyes, his head close. He was clever, but he didn't ask a question.

Why did he sense sadness in his mother even though her eyes were smiling?

Shen Xi was unwilling to bring the topic of life and death to the forefront in front of her child, even though the child was old enough to understand the pseudo-concept of life and death.

"Xiaoman, your father and I are going out for a bit. Why don't you rest for a while?"

Xiao Jiangdu nodded obediently. Perhaps it was the bond between mother and child, but Xiao Jiangdu's eyes were filled with reluctance, and for the first time, he even showed such longing that he wanted to ask his mother if she could stay with him.

But he remained quietly seated on the hospital bed, clutching a fluffy little dog doll in his small hand, watching Shen Xi's beautiful figure disappear into a corner of the ward.

Xiao Jiangdu felt an unprecedented panic; he suddenly lost his voice, and his large eyes filled with tears.

He shouted loudly, "Mom!!"

He was met with an empty silence.

Shen Xi and Jiang Ci had already boarded the elevator.

But the atmosphere inside the elevator was equally suffocating.

Two people, one tall and one short, stood one in front of the other in the elevator.

—Ding, we've arrived at the basement level.

The elevator's cheerful female mechanical voice suddenly brought the two of them to their senses.

Jiang Ci strode forward quickly, lifted the woman who was slowly walking by his waist, and carried her to the car in three strides.

He silently opened the car door, his face grim, and gently placed Shen Xi into the passenger seat.

With a bang, he got into the car and closed the door.

Shen Xi gripped the hem of her clothes tightly, her eyes blankly staring at her hands, which had turned pale from exerting too much force.

Jiang Ci looked away, glanced out the window, took a deep breath, and then turned back to look at Shen Xi, his eyes filled with despair.

"Shen Xi, we've come this far, and you still won't talk to me."

His voice was hoarse.

Am I... really that untrustworthy to you?

Jiang Ci's voice choked for a moment.

Shen Xi's mind was in a mess. In fact, from the moment she accepted Shen Lu's conditions, she seemed to have been in a daze. She calmly told Jiang Po to keep the secret, calmly watched the pedestrians on the roadside walk by in twos and threes with smiles, and calmly got up from the ground outside the toilet to tell others that she was fine.

After Jiang Ci's questioning struck her heart, Shen Xi asked herself—Are you really okay?

She couldn't give herself the answer.

She couldn't give Jiang Ci an answer either.

Shen Xi's facial muscles twitched, and she forced a smile as she looked at Jiang Ci, her eyes vacant and unfocused.

"Jiang Ci, don't be afraid, I have a feeling I might have to go home..."

Jiang Ci's pupils suddenly contracted, his eyes filled with disbelief, "Shen Xi..."

He paused, momentarily at a loss for words. Should he ask, "What's wrong with your eyes?"

I still want to ask... Shen Xi, why didn't you tell me beforehand?

Shen Xi's eyes were calm, and her voice was as quiet and gentle as ever, "Jiang Ci, perhaps my time to travel to this time and space has come. This world can no longer accommodate me, and it's time for me to go home."

Speaking of last,

Shen Xi smiled, but tears slowly welled up in her eyes as she spoke, each word distinct.

"Jiang Ci, congratulate me, I'm going home now."

Can she really go back? Shen Xi herself doesn't know.

But these words were undoubtedly a cruel rub of salt into Jiang Ci's old wounds.

He remained silent for a long time after hearing this.

In the cramped, enclosed car,

The man remained silent for a long time, his hands resting on the steering wheel, his expression unfocused for a long time, before finally letting out a muffled laugh. His voice was so cold it pierced the heart.

“Shen Xi, in your heart I’m not even as good as a guard dog. If a dog wags its tail and begs for your mercy, you’ll feel pity for it. But what about me?”

"I can't even get a single truth from you, can I?"

His eyes were bloodshot, and he gave a wretched, miserable smile; his delicate face was filled with desolation and vulnerability.

"Shen Xi, when will you ever pity me?"

These words struck Shen Xi's heart like a hammer blow.

Shen Xi lowered her head, large tears falling one by one onto her hands. She gritted her teeth, unable to bear seeing Jiang Ci's disheveled appearance, and pinched her palms hard, closing her tear-filled eyes.

Shen Xi's eyes were moist, and her voice trembled slightly. Her heart felt strangely empty, and even her words sounded heavy and suffocating.

"Jiang Ci, don't wait for me, I... I miss home."

Shen Xi gritted her teeth and forced herself to say those words.

She might soon disappear into this vast universe, and Jiang Ci couldn't wait another five years.

Rather than leaving him with a glimmer of hope, it's better to plunge him into despair and wait in vain.

It would be better to tell him from the beginning that it's impossible.

Shen Xi knows Jiang Ci too well. If she were to use any other excuse to explain her eye problem, Jiang Ci would be able to tell at a glance. But if she were to bring up the issue of her disappearing after returning home...

That was enough to disrupt his thinking.

And he always supported all her decisions.

A complete and utter believer in the supremacy of Shenxi.

But, Jiang Ci, I'm so sorry...

This time, it seems I really can't come back.